I am the father of Ciarra Joi "CJ" Rhodes. I am the man blessed to have 13 and a half years with my beautiful daughter. I am also the survivor of her teenage suicide. I miss her every minute of every day! I hope this site will keep her memory alive and maybe help others.

Author Archives: Dusty

I am asking you to stay!

I’m putting this out here again as I have heard that there was yet again another teen suicide. Please know that you are loved and I am always here for anyone and everyone!!! You’re life matter!! Dear Hurting Teenager, I know you want to leave. I know the horrible, endless walks through the hallways that…

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CJR 6 – Remembering Ciarra

Another year went by and again, we hosted another charity tournament to honor Ciarra and Martina. We are proud that we could support suicide prevention with financial add. Our Homerun Derby was a huge success. We raised more then 1000.-€ alone for the Frauenhaus in Groß-Gerau. We are thankful to all who participated, helped and…

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Ciarras 18th Birthday

Today would have been Ciarras 18th birthday. Not a typical day in the 3rd fairway at work. I wonder if Ciarra is telling me to smile. It seems like something my girls would do to change my mood…

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Thank you to all, who supported CJR 5

I have thought long and hard about what to say in the after part of CJR5. I am not good with words. I can not thank anyone without thanking someone else I would forget. I am speechless after this years tourney to remember my daughter Everyone that supported this thank you. Everyone that helped us…

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CJR 5 is coming

it is very difficult for me to realize that this May will be the 5th annual CJR charity tournament. It is hard to know that I lost my girl over five years ago. This tournament will be a great event to raise money for charity again. I than all of you for the support that…

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CJR 4 – Remembering Ciarra and Martina

This was the second tourney we held to honour our daughter and to fight suicide. It was held without Martina. She was very much missed by everyone. It is not the same without her. We will keep doing the tourney and suicide prevention, because it was something we had to promise her before she passed…

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CJR 3 – Ciarra and Martina looking down

CJR 3 was the first one we had to do without Martina. She got sick, the doctors couldn’t find the cause – and after a month of fighting, Martina joined Ciarra in Heaven. They are together now which is the only thought that helps to understand why she had to go. We all missed her…

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CJR3 Memorial Softball Tournament info

This is the poster for the CJR3 Tournament.  We want to thank our Sponsors, ENVOY, BERSERK, MONSTA ATHLETICS, BSN SPORTS and 444 SPORTS.  Thank you all so much for your help in getting this event to be a success. We will do our best to raise both money and awareness to fight against suicide and bullying. …

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