I am the father of Ciarra Joi "CJ" Rhodes. I am the man blessed to have 13 and a half years with my beautiful daughter. I am also the survivor of her teenage suicide. I miss her every minute of every day! I hope this site will keep her memory alive and maybe help others.

Author Archives: Dusty

9 years …

I updated your name today. The colors were starting to fade after these nine years. It sticks out a little more now just as you did. Laura helped me find the materials. You are of course the only one like it. Just as you were my only one since you were born. I still talk…

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CJR 8 Drawings as a thank you

We also handed out some Softball Problems to three people who helped to make the tourney happen. Former mayor of Babenhausen – Achim – he organized all the support from the THW so we would have power during the weekend. Tom – who helps to make breakfast every year and who was there to help…

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CJR 8 – Auctions

As every year, we had a couple of items and auctioned them off for our charity work. Here are some videos: A bat Corona Jersey Game of Thrones autograph: The Mountain, Hafþór Júlíus Björnsson Last CJR Jersey CJR Cornhole Bags Mean Joe Green – Steelers Football Jersey with autograph Eastpro Rollerbag Snydeman Stormtrooper Jersey in…

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I am asking you to stay!

I’m putting this out here again as I have heard that there was yet again another teen suicide. Please know that you are loved and I am always here for anyone and everyone!!! You’re life matter!! Dear Hurting Teenager, I know you want to leave. I know the horrible, endless walks through the hallways that…

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CJR 6 – Remembering Ciarra

Another year went by and again, we hosted another charity tournament to honor Ciarra and Martina. We are proud that we could support suicide prevention with financial add. Our Homerun Derby was a huge success. We raised more then 1000.-€ alone for the Frauenhaus in Groß-Gerau. We are thankful to all who participated, helped and…

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Ciarras 18th Birthday

Today would have been Ciarras 18th birthday. Not a typical day in the 3rd fairway at work. I wonder if Ciarra is telling me to smile. It seems like something my girls would do to change my mood…

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Thank you to all, who supported CJR 5

I have thought long and hard about what to say in the after part of CJR5. I am not good with words. I can not thank anyone without thanking someone else I would forget. I am speechless after this years tourney to remember my daughter Everyone that supported this thank you. Everyone that helped us…

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